“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” ― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets
I was alone in a sea of people and my heart ached to experience the reciprocity of a loving relationship. The desire to love and to be loved was as intense as my desire to pursue my calling. Like in a desert for days, I was left there not knowing what it is to belong to someone, to know love and to give it back, to be known and to be desired and to be pursued with passion. I was thirsty.
I dove deep down into my soul to search for answers only to find myself lonelier than I was before. I flirted with the thought that maybe a quick relationship would make all these feelings go away but all that was a sham. God is love and so my quest began, not because I wanted to but out of necessity. It forced me into a place where my only option was to surrender or to suffer in grave desperation wanting something I could not have in that moment. At the end of myself, my eyes were opened to Daddy God’s unconditional love for me. The truth is I have always been loved and it has nothing to do whether I deserve it or not. After all, his love is not deserved but freely given.
Most people are screaming silently deep inside yearning to be known, to be accepted and be loved. The core of why we do what we do and our existence is love. And in the end the only thing that truly matters are the things we’ve done in love. No human-being will ever meet our deepest needs. We are all empty vessels with a need to be filled because of a god-size cavern within us that only Jesus can fill.
Love is not just a spurge of emotions, it is the most powerful force in the entire universe. It was the motivation of God to create us so He can have a loving relationship with us. It is not expressed out of need but out of the abundance of the heart. We are created in the image of God and He is love; therefore, we are love personified on earth. We are meant to receive love and give it away.
There is no shame in desiring to be loved but one must come from a place where we are already filled with the love of Jesus. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. No one person is alike, so we should never apologize for whom we are or whom we are not. What we have or what we do not have because ultimately we are a perfect fit with God’s best. There is no need to rush for the appointed time will come when we’ll be ready. We are a gift that’s waiting to be unpacked. Enjoy this season of singleness and let’s use our time to cultivate the wonder woman inside of each of us.
Written by: Sheila Zoe
Sheila Zoe’s heart is to unveil the beauty of Jesus that every child of God may be awakened in their true identity. She has a personal revelation of the intimacy of Christ and wants to impart the freedom and rest as a result of being in an intimate relationship with Jesus.
She has been raising women to walk in love, power and wonder by hosting International Online Wonder Woman Classes using her social media platform. She hosts two bible studies in Cebu Philippines where she currently resides with her two lovely children.
Sheila is a highly intuitive spirit and life coach who serves others in their spiritual growth, emotional health, relationships, pursuing dreams and identity. She champions in helping others pursue their God given destiny and has a deep understanding on the process every sincere believer goes through.
She is currently writing her book, The Prosperous Soul (Eliminating the Spirit of Poverty) in her hometown. She travels the world on long term and short missions preaching the gospel and discipling nations.
Sheila Zoe loves to collect yarns and knits on her spare time.